Well, a few days ago I performed at Yuk-Yuk's in Ottawa. It was a fairly good sized crowd, but even though most of the seats were occupied, the whole entire row in front of the stage was empty. I really wish they would seat people at that club. It is extremely hard to connect with your audience when they are sitting so far from the stage. I was on tenth out of 14 stand-ups performing. I took the stage, started my routine, and........a few giggles here and there, for some it would have been considered a good set, for me, it was mediocre. I hate silence, so I have my routine set that there is SUPPOSE to be a giggle every 30 secons at least. There were quite a few spots that night where I know there was suppose to be a laugh at there was none. There was laughter, but not a lot. I did not "kill". I suppose I should be happy that there wasn't complete silence but I am my own worst critic. The standards I have for myself are high, and I guess that is something I must work on. I should learn to give myself a break. I did find solace though in the fact that after I left the stage I was approached by a fellow comic who routinely reviews the shows, and rather harshley, and he put his arm around me and said "I think tonight, is the first night you met an audience that was afraid to laugh at your humour. Your punchlines were there, your rythm was there, but your audience just thouht you were too edgy." I thank him for that because he is a brutally honest individual. He definately tells it like he sees it, so I know he wasn't just trying to make me feel better. I have to realize that I will come across audiences that are just not 'into' my humour, and that I will have to realize, is okay. Humour is a personal thing. Everyone has a different sense of humour and not everyone is going to like mine. Does that mean I am not funny? No. I have to remember that! As sad as it is, I just want everyone to love me! LOVE ME! It's like highschool all over again....and once again I am NOT the cool kid!
